 It's been a week since i last met him.. Missing him badly now.. Been crying since..after we end our call.. Trying to control those tears by playing the Music Challenge game at FB.. Makes me happy when i got the 600 plus score..but feeling down again after that.. Crying till my tears runs out..dry..bloody tears..not really,only black tears.. I feel shit ryte now.. Can't sacrifice my time for him.. Im such a useless whore..omg!.. wat's happening to me??.. Feel like quitting my job and just focus on him.. Stuffing myself right now with oily junk food..Too stress to take up the challenge.. Thought of my stress will get away..but it doesn't..its getting worse.. I have no idea what am i stressing about.. Isit about work? Life? Love? Relationship?..IDK!.. OMG!..I'm just missing him badly now.. Been days i keep hiding this feelings at work so that no one would ask.. I try to be happy at work that sometimes i'm too busy and forget to sacrifice my time to him..That's what he told me.. That's the word.. SACRIFICES... I'm pissed off with myself.. Why am i becoming?.. Where's my time and sacrifices?.. Where's my love that i need to shower him with?.. Where's my care n concern that i should show him?.. It's all going to a wrong direction..WHY?.. Cause i didn't lead them to where they should go.. They are lost..WHY?... Cause i'm too busy!!!!.. I'm heading to bed now..And still crying.. Crys till my eyes get ugly.. Goodnight my blog..u r the only thing that i can let it out too.. Thanks for being there for me.. Walking away sadly, Hellena Fuzza   This is N97 Mini and this is N97 the normal one.. Ika just got it and herny wanting it..hahakz!   SE x1 & SE Satio..It's still in my list.. I'm gonna get this both handphone..  This my new list.. SE Aino Slider!!!.. *melting* (Features 3-inch 240x432 touchscreen display,8 megapixel camera,WiFi,Integrated support for A-GPS and Bluetooth. The camera offers 16x digital zoom,geo-tagging function,face detection,touch focus,image and video stabilizer and red eye reduction. MicroSD cards for expansion. Two colours are available. Obsidian Black & Luminous White.)   This is the new SE x2 & x3.. I dun think in Singapore is out yet cause i don't see one selling here..or there is?!..
Hey readers!
I'm back with new post.. Been working and busy lately due to "I'M ADDICTED TO CAFE WORLD!" hahakz! My mum just came back from KL 2 days ago..Yeah,i was all alone in my house for 3 days 2 nights.. Too bad i can't follow due to my work.. 4 days being spare is boring!..If 2 3 days become spare is better but 4 days?!..no way! hahakz! I left with 2 leave and i don't know when to use it.. Hari Raya Haji i'm off..i don't know if i can get that day.. So i left with one.. I don't noe to take it on 15th Dec or 30th Dec...Hmm.. 12th Dec is ZOUK OUT!..I'm SOOOOOO going....hahakz!.. Now i'm sitting in front of my lappy and cooking some dishes at my Cafe..hehehe! Few days ago,someone told me about something.. Well..i dunnoe.. I dunnoe why people hate us so much..What do we do wrong in this situation??.. Just becaause we are new? or just because u guys r to over the egde of being somebody that A MUST we shuld "RESPECT"? Have u ever seen us talk bad about u all?.. Have u ever see us never "layan" u all??.. We've been nice,we don't want any conflict to happen coz we are TOGETHER in this.. So why must there should be any grudges between us?? And now the "NEW US" is in..and there's STILL have talkings and saying about it.. WTH?! WTF?!.. I just couldn't understand.. For me,i'm neutral..I just listen and keep quiet.. I just go with the flow..coz i dun give a damn about it.. If u readers reading this,think about it.. Regards. PS:Btw,i noe i'm a plus size..If u guys don't like or hate about it than back off!..1 time u say it i'm ok,2 time u say it i forgive but frequent time u say it..THAN U R AN ASS HOLE!!!.. I doesn't show it but it really hurts me inside..
Yesterday,i make myself a VEGETARIAN FOOD!..
I ate vege..healthy lifestyle..and ohh yah..with orange juice also..Here there are..   Today,I cooked my self a dish which i created.. First is Stir Fried Cabbage with Broccoli and Mushroom with Soy Sauce. 2nd dish is Fried Potato with Cabbage and Onion with Chilli sauce and Flakes. First one okay ah..there's something missing..trying to figure it out.. The 2nd dish was beatifully perfect but a lil bit hotty!..hehe.. Eat it with pasta will be just nice.. Here's the photo of my creation.. 
i'M BACK AGAIN!!!..
I was a lil bit hungry this afternoon and thought of hunting food in my fridge..and guess what i found.. DONUTS and PUFFS!..hehe!..   My mum bought donuts and i bought the chewy junior..Woooo... Take a look inside.. YUMMY!!..   And yeah,dun forget my "kuih raya"...nobody came to my house to raya due to both of us working..hahakz!..and at last me n my mum finish it up..   My koko crunch and kuih tart!!..Every year A MUST to have coz it's my favourite... The other kuih is my mum's one..i dun like..got salty taste..hehe!..  Ok i juz finish ate one donut n i'm full now..hahakz! REGARDS!!
Today not working due to health problem..thnx to my fucking job..argh!..
Ok..view some of the wedding dresses and found a few whc is to my liking.. Here's some pictured i upload..Nice huh?..but it's costly..          Well..u get married only once so the BIG DAY shuld be the day u really want urself to look beautiful n elegent..not always u can be Princess of the Day..hehe!..
Today went out with my mum to SUNTEC CONVENTION CENTRE..My mum wanna check out the Malaysian Tourism holiday thingy..
Yeah find a few..My mum thinking of going for a holiday next year January.. As we were about to leave,saw Huda,Nizzam's GF..she works tourism i guess..still the same sweet Huda..hehe!.. Headed to Marina Square to have our dinner.. My mum ate Grill Chix set whereas me,i ate Nasi Lemak only.. Than bought popiah for my grandmama.. As we were wlaking back to the carpark,my mum make a quick visit to EVERBEST shop..yeah!..she's buying sandals as all her sandals are spoilt.. And the shocking part is..my mum asked me whether i want any shoes.. APA LAGI!!..AKU PUN KEBAS LAH SATU..hahakz!.. Thy having sales..1st pair 10% and 2nd and 3rd pair gets 50%.. Total of %155.80...wuuuuu!!... Thankx ibu for the shoes..hehe!  Regards. |
 Known as Hellena Fuzza. Getting older when the date falls on 15 September. Currently i'm 22 years old and counting. Proudly to say still attached to my beloved, Muhd SyaFii bin Arshad. ♥♥♥ 
FAMILY
1.Hyundai Genesis Coupe. 2.SE Satio,SE Aino,Se x1 x2 n x3 3.Hyundai i30 Sports Version. 4.Vespa 5.KIA Cerato Koupe 8.Getting Married. 10.Holiday in Tioman. 13.Karaoke with GUARDIAN ANGELS. 15.Get my first paycheck. 16.Buy my mum a special gift. 17.Pampered myself with SPA. 24."Burned" Book. 26.Have a nice dinner @ fancy restaurant with Juwita. 28.Eat @ Fresh Bulggogi. 30.SUZUKI DRZ. 31.Become a CSO station. 32.Completed my collection HOUSE OF NIGHT novel. 33.Fiat 500C. July 2008 l August 2008 l September 2008 l October 2008 l November 2008 l December 2008 l January 2009 l February 2009 l March 2009 l April 2009 l May 2009 l June 2009 l July 2009 l August 2009 l September 2009 l October 2009 l November 2009 l designed by: dreamwalker powered by: blogger game scripted by: Lancer picture from: StockStash |
